Passing of time . . .

It's hard to believe so much time has passed since we began this adoption journey.  It's fall already  and this year has sped by.  The one subject I've been thinking about a lot lately is contentment or being happy in the moment.  Maybe "happy" isn't such a good descriptor, more like, satisfied, comfortable, resting or at peace with life's circumstances.  You see, I'm a planner and I like to have things mapped out so I know what I'm doing from one weekend to the next or after work or more immediately, what I'm having for lunch or what I can get accomplished in a day.
There's nothing wrong with planning, as long as you aren't torn apart when your plans don't work out.  I'm not that way, sure I get disappointed but I'm pretty flexible.  I guess the struggle is more between contentment in the present versus anticipation of the future.  I realize ultimately that I am not in charge and my idea of how my day is gonna be, is merely and idea.  If I have a plan, then I can be prepared.  Therefore it may be more about being prepared than really having something planned.  I know that although I plan ahead it doesn't necessarily mean I'm unhappy with what's happening today.  So planning ahead and having your mind in the future is not the equivalent of being disconnected or unhappy with the present.
I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and occurs in God's timing.  So fretting and planning are not going to change the course God has for us.  Anticipation of future events is more of a faith and trust thing.  You look forward, anticipate, hope and expect things to happen.   Does that mean you're not happy with the part of the path you're on right now?  Nope, I don't think so, just means you're excited about what God has for you in the future and you are trusting that it will be revealed in His time and in His way.

Just remember that the path you walk right now has it's own aspects to be enjoyed.  God chose this path for you and not another.  There are things on this path for you to learn, enjoy, work through, and heal from.  While on your particular journey, don't watch your feet.  God has them and guides your every step; instead, get that chin up, look around, enjoy the view.  The journey is just as important as the destination.